the quality that allows someone to continue doing something or trying to do something even though it is difficult or opposed by other people
the state of occurring or existing beyond the usual, expected, or normal time
I have reflected on my health journey a few times on this blog. Everything has mostly centered around hormonal imbalances whether it prevented me from getting pregnant or turning me into a crazy person… Most recently the craziness seemed like it would NEVER go away. Ever since I stopped nursing over 8 months ago, I haven’t been right. My body has been off. I gained weight without changing a single thing, any little thing triggered extreme mood swings, easily angered. I don’t think that anyone (except my husband) would say I turned into a mad woman, but I really have had a very hard time controlling my emotions. I want to do the right thing, but I get so easily riled up that it turns into negative reactions. I’ve been to a couple holistic doctors, and just nothing seemed to be working.
In opening up to several people about what I feel like I’ve been going through, I’m not alone like I felt like I was. Apparently this happens to a LOT of women and they just don’t talk about it. WHY???? We need to unite and support each other through this kind of stuff. I NEVER want to feel the way I’ve felt for the last 8mo ever again! If you’re going through this, I’m here for you, even if you just need to vent. It’s a terrible feeling to feel out of control. I’ve been on this journey, I now know I’m not alone, I refuse to get medicated like some friends have, and I FiNALLY found something that is working for me.
I recently had a sinus infection with some residual ear drainage. My equilibrium was leaving me. I remembered in this moment of dizziness an acupuncturist that I used to go to years ago who had healed his dad of deafness. I went to him. Not only is he helping me with middle ear trauma, but he’s helping me help myself through this hard time I’ve been going through.
After he asked me to stick out my tongue before I said anything, he said “why are you so stressed, anxious and thinking all of the time?” I told him about feeling like I was just off balance, that something hasn’t been right since I stopped nursing. He agreed and said that there’s nothing wrong with me, that I can’t fix it myself, and that I just need to be ‘reset.’ I don’t understand acupuncture, but I do know that it works, and let me tell you, I’m a different person. Not only has he been doing acupuncture, but he’s been helping me to change my way of thinking. This off-balance life that I’ve been living the last several months has had an extremely negative impact on me. I was truly feeling nearly hopeless, but I refused to give up and accept this feeling as my ‘normal’. Retraining my mind to react and respond positively is just as much work as training your body for a sport, but it doesn’t take long.
I never realized how bad I was until I started seeing how much better I’m getting. It’s been an incredible journey that’s shaped and molded me, given me a new level of understanding, realizing how easy it is to let life pull me down without me even knowing, and a time that I never want to revisit again. All that to say, there’s hope in your health journey. God will send you someone, they don’t have to be a Christian or pastor, they can be an ER doctor turned acupucturist all the way from Syria, but He WiLL send you someone, so keep looking! NEVER Give Up!